It's official; I have been accepted into Heartland Baptist Bible College for the Fall 2014 semester. As of now, I am moving toward attending next fall. This time of my life seems so surreal. I feel incapable of the step ahead. Also, it is now that I am second-guessing my academic ability. It's never until you're finished with school that you wish you have studied harder... Last month when my sister moved, and we were sorting through the storage shed, I was given her old college books. Never in my life have I been so excited to be given school books! I will need at least 3 of them, I know for sure. One of which is $50 - on sale. I was happy. :) I have a plastic tub in the garage with my accumulating college supplies. One of the first things I put in it was a mini coffee pot. Big surprise.
This time can also get very frightening. The unknowns, my incapability, or simply HOW. It's overwhelming at times. Eight months and my life will be very different in many ways. Things that will, without a doubt, change..... -Geographically -Small town to big city. I love small towns. I'm a country girl at heart. I love my cowboy boots, I love hunting, I love the outdoors, and I adore animals. I would love to live on a ranch. Oh, yeah! As far as the big city goes, I don't care for it too much. I don't care for the overabundance of concrete and buildings, or the lack of grass and trees. I don't care for the crowds, the creepy people, or the business of life in the city. I don't like the traffic or the commute. Nevertheless, I will move from a small town, population 5,700, to big city population 600,000. Oh yeah, and I can't drive yet. 0.o -Family home to Dormitory. College life will be the first time being on my own. The added cost and responsibility of living on my own will be on me. One thing that I think has prepared me for college life is always having shared a room with either one or both of my sisters. I even shared a bed until my oldest sister moved out. Dormitory life isn't a big deal for me.... more like the change of people I will be sharing my space with. -My church. IBT will always be my home. However for the time at college, SWBC will become my 'church-home-away-from-home'. That transition alone is huge. I've been attending my home church since I was like 7 or 8! I'm attached to these people! Some of them know more about me than I know about myself. They've been with me through - everything. I love them all! And I will have to leave them behind. I have always been the one getting left behind... being on this side of it makes me feel guilty. But the change from the church I have been in all my life and everyone knows me, to a new church where the congregation overwhelms is will be huge. -Academically -Home school to College-life. Aside from the first two years of school which were in a private Church-run Christian school, I have been home schooled. I'm grateful for it, but at the same time, it will be a huge transition for me. My study habits, learning routines, class schedules and everything academically will be different. I will have more than one student in my class. A teacher aside from myself. More of a class load. Set deadlines to meet.... and, something I am looking forward to, an instant need for school supplies! Call me lame, but I have never been able to go shopping for school supplies. I'm excited about that part. But then again, I'll have to buy it all. That's the not-so-cool part. :) -Financially -HOW? I know that's typical for college students, but I wanted to be different. I wanted to have a years tuition in the bank so not to have to rely on a job. Well, that isn't looking like it's going to happen. I may be close to having a semester - if that - but not a year. So, now I will be the typical broke college student. Even now, I'm up against a dilemma of getting a job now. Which I hope to be able to do soon. At this point, after years of pretty much being done with school, and just being at home all day, I feel incredibly lazy, and somewhat useless. I need to work. But, I'm preparing for rain. Hopefully by next week I can get my application in. I'm so ready! -Socially -People. People. People. -Noise. My house is quiet. We've grown up taught kids should be seen and not heard. Not being seen either is a bonus. "Inside voices" as my nephew would say, have always been a requirement. We've been taught to be calm and quiet as much as possible. If we want to play, it's transferred to outside, or behind closed doors. Talking isn't something that's big around my house either. Silence is. That will be a big deal for me as the opposite could be said about college. A quiet spot will be hard to find, I know. - Like camp in some ways. - But I know every experience will be good for me to learn from. -Drama. The drama of hundreds of college-age girls in one place..... oh my. I like to stay away from drama. But, we'll see how that turns out. Maybe I'm the one who brings it with me. -Cliques. Such is one of my biggest pet peeves, and find myself in the often. :( You find them everywhere. Freshmen have the hardest time in situations like that. I don't expect that too much given the atmosphere of the college from previous visits, but it's only to be expected that I will face them at some point. -'Judging' and labels. Yes, it's Bible College, but that doesn't make anyone exempt from typical social labels. You will be placed into some group whether you like it or not. You will be silently judged by many of the students there. It's a lot to take in. In 8 months (I think) and counting, my life will be a complete flip of what it is now. Everything I know will forever change the day I leave. Some things I am looking forward to changing, others, not so much. However, I know some things just won't change. With every day there, every trip home, every summer, and after graduation, they'll still be the same. -Privacy, or the lack of. Privacy is a luxury you don't get too often in college... comparable to camp, or at my house. The first house I lived in, we had 1 bathroom.... 1 bathroom and 7 people. Growing up with 4 siblings, it's no big deal. You learn ways around it. -Sharing a room. I've shared a room my whole life. It's nothing new. However, my sister knows when it's time to go to bed simply by what I do. But that will all change. My roommates won't have to go by my schedule of going to sleep. -Blogging. I won't quit, I promise. There may be times it will be longer between posts while I am busy, but I will stick with it. I will still be learning and sharing what I learn through it all. -Christ. He is constant; He will not change, and I am so glad of it. He is the only thing I will be able to rely on and be sure of during my stay at college, and through the rest of my life. So, the next year in this way is going to be crazy! But I'm excited.
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1/13/2014 10:36:51 am
Hi there!
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1/13/2014 11:15:21 am
I'm glad you found me! :-) That is awesome.... I'm trying to get to know people there NOW so I won't be completely lost this fall. ;-) I apretiate your prayers. I will need all I can get! :-)
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your sister :P
1/22/2014 03:37:17 pm
Aw, that was good. And glad you can use the books. Okay number one...there is no privacy at college. Lol and two, we are introverts! :)
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