I know it seems as I have fallen off the blog bandwagon as of late. And, it's been over a month since I've written a new post. It's no excuse, but life has gotten really crazy for me. So many things have happened over the past month or so, I couldn't even begin to relay them all. Let alone, a new chapter of my life is unfolding with brand new challenges, experiences, and blessings. I recently was given a job. The very job I prayed for, desired, worked towards, and cried over, and kind of gave up on, yet it was always in the back of my mind. I am the cook at a SEK-CAP Early Headstart Center, and I love it! It was a challenge to find a job, but God still had things for me to learn, and in the end, He gave me the most perfect job for me. Well, as perfect as you can get next to a pillow tester. ;) I absolutely adore my kids! I have many now, ages 0-5. These little miracles just make my day. I can't tell you how much they have stolen my heart. Every smile, every hug, every "I wuv you" turns my heart to mush. God has used them to teach me many things, and to be a reminder of His presence and His love. This job is exhausting to me. Emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually. I'm on a rollercoaster every day. Facing new challenges, new temptations, and testing on a daily basis. I'm learning and facing more than I ever have. It's a different atmosphere than I have ever been in. It's forcing me to grow up in ways I didn't even think I needed to. It's requiring me to take a stand, while also question and consider things I'd never considered before. It's building my faith. It is teaching me how to carry great responsibility. While also, teaching me to have a confidence in what I do that I have never had. Socially, it is great for me. I'm around tons of people every day now. As a homeschooler, I didn't grow up with that, and as a result, I think I've turned into more of an introvert. However, it's building my communication skills and growing me socially. All this before I even step foot on a college campus. How great is that?! Ask anyone who's known me very long, I am not a morning person whatsoever! I hate mornings! I am a night owl. I will stay up late and sleep late given every opportunity. I also am an insomniac. And so, even when I do sleep, it's not GOOD sleep, so I'm almost always tired...hence, I love my naps. ;) But this job is preparing me for college even in this way with early mornings. I get up 6:30, or a little before. Aside from during hunting season, I didn't know mornings started that early! I detest the morning hours. I don't want to move, or speak...most definitely not be awake! However, as much as I still don't like mornings, they're becoming easier for me. Now, on weekends when I can and want to sleep in, my body still wakes me up at 6-6:30. Why?! :) Also the training and the knowledge that I'm gaining is preparing me and will be so beneficial to me in the future. This job also is extremely convicting to my heart. And, it's not singling out any one thing. There are many things that this can relate to. But, we are more active in gaining recruits for preschool than we are in gaining students in sunday school! Especially surrounding missions conference, it broke me. I love what I do. I love the kids. I love being able to have a part, even if just a small one, in these family's lives. I love my Team; I love who I work with. This is a new experience for me. It's completely different than the past 12 years of my life. As difficult as it is to overcome many (mainly personal) challenges, it's such a blessing, and I enjoy every minute of it. So, this is my life at this time. It's crazy, it's busy, and I don't have enough hours in the day to get everything done. I'm juggling priorities and trying to fit everything in. It kills me not to be able to write, but I'm trying to make time. Writing, and this blog, it's part of me. To have to put it aside, rips me apart. There are certain things I love and feel I am called to do. This is one of them. And I have a renewed dedication to this. Please bear with me as I attempt to share my heart a little more often from now on. :)
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