56 Birthdays. 37 years of marriage. 5 Kids. 6 (almost 7) grandkids. 28 days of Covid. 17 nights in the ICU. There was a painful permanence to these days, but also a peaceful completion. I’ve always been drawn to words but this time, they’re the hardest thing. Like I shared a few weeks ago, you never know how often you message your mom about the most random things until you can’t. Because, we did constantly. About everything. Because she always wanted to see whatever it was, know whatever was going on, and always cared about whatever it was. (And who offers sympathy better than your mom? 😅) She loved my babies. Since the moment she knew they existed. She was always concerned about not seeing Jae enough and her not knowing who she was. Well, the day after her passing, Jaelynn started saying “Neenee”. And during the viewing, she pointed to her body and said “Neenee” and continues to. She knows. And Jason will too. Knowing she’s with Jesus and Grandma is such a comfort. We can say, “I wish…” or “it’s not fair” or wave our plans in the air and say, “we were supposed to…” But, God knew. Nothing was out of His control. We prayed she would get better, and she did. Even though we would have hoped to have more time, or one more chance where she was conscious to talk to her, it was in His plans. So while it grieves our hearts for the loss and unfulfilled expectations, and I think it will be there for a long time, we trust that God is sovereign and right. Seeing the suffering first-hand is still engraved in my mind. While we wish we could have understood it sooner and been present through it, He was. And she is now enjoying a more whole and perfect body than we could imagine. With that said, I hesitate to continue because there is so much raw emotion. I think when you walk through grief you become more sensitive to the causing situation, or at least more aware of it, but this has been ridiculous. I have nearly left social media viewing entirely as of late. Why? Because every third post is an argument, a rant, a debate or opinion on something that has become so real to me. That post so hastily typed of your opinion on he matter, who does it really help? The graphic images and descriptions of things so recently viewed lie heavy on my mind. What was the purpose of sharing that? To promote awareness or just to manipulate emotions to prove your point? For some, what you so flippantly discuss is incredibly raw and real. All I am asking is before you post, share, comment, or private message someone, stop and consider if what you are posting - from both sides - is beneficial. And please, do not use situations such as these as a springboard to push your own agenda. Bluntly, that's just rude. Are you adding to the flames of politics or are you encouraging and building each other up? I want my babies to hear me talk of Jesus more than of Covid or other political issues. A year from now, I want my facebook "memories" to be encouraging and uplifting, not filled with anger and judgement on things I don't understand or can't control. For those who come behind, I implore you to consider this before you click "post". Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Phil. 4.8 Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is good to the use of edifying, that it may minister grace unto the hearers. Eph. 4.29
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